I am a Good Mom!!!

Madisons parent/teacher conference went very well...I was very happy and it also took everything in me not not to cry...they are essentially telling you how they feel she will do next year in Kindergarten.. ..and they said despite her speech they wouldnt be suprised if she was placed in a gifted and talented class. They are so happy with how she has "bloomed" into a very well mannered, self controlled, motivated and smart young girl. At the same time, Im telling them..well I get a whole different child when we get home. She screams and cries all the time it seems like... They told me what they think of Madisons behavior here and home and how they think it is partly of the move to the house and her speech...trying to make people understand you can be very exhausting. They said she has so much she wants to share but its hard to make it all come out the way she wants it, so that can wear her out. So they told me ways to try to work around that but not to force her to rest, etc. They also told me at the end that Im doing right by her and Im a very wonderful mother...which of course is when I almost lost it.... I had Madison very young and b/c of that I think I question myself often, almost with every choice I make for her...I ask myself "is this what is best for her? Am I doing the right thing?"......and to hear someone else tell me that Im doing right by her and Im a very good mother just really made my day and hit home for me that even though I may question myself every single day, that they are right..I am a good mom..and it was wonderful to get some recongition for it, for someone else to see what I do for her every day....Ok now that Im bawling after getting all that out, I think I will go work on cleaning some...

Bottled up

So I'm a little annoyed with a few things and I think if I dont get them out I might blow up!


First...you think you know someone..you think they are your best friend and then contact with this person stops....and one can only guess why...a new boyfriend/girlfriend....as always right.?You do your best to make the contact stay constant but alas...nothing works...you even get a "Well you can call me" response....well WTF! You can call me too! Im emailing you and you never respond..thats my attempt..if you dont like to email then call me! uugghhh..Ive made the first step now you make the next one. This crap has gone on long enough. And not just now in the current time, but in the past...why am I the one trying to stay in contact with people from HS and after HS....does anyone not want to stay in touch with me? Well fine then, screw you, I dont want to stay in touch with you either!

Second, small town BS...hate it...hate small towns even more..especially my home town...people are hypocrites...I hate to say it, I dont think I will ever call Athens my hometown ever again...I have had it with the politics in that town, with the people, I just dont even want to know that town anymore...and if my parents and my brother didnt live there I would never ever go back.

Third...and while I know it was a accident Im so upset that Danny has lost his wedding ring I could cry every night....I know he didnt mean to lose it but its still so upsetting that the first big symbol of our marriage is gone and we have no idea where it went.


Last but not least, the most annoying thing of all for most americans..money....why dont I ever have enough of it?!